13 years later...

Next month is our 13th Anniversary. Yesterday around 3:45 in the morning, Avery came home. I was so tired when he called me to pick him up (haven't had time to get his car fixed). After picking him up, chatting for an hr or two and all that "fun" stuff, LOL, we finally settled down to sleep. He started snoring about 10 seconds later (I hate the way he can do that) I, on the other hand, couldn't sleep! I just starred at him, the sun was starting to rise and there was a light coming in from the window, I could barely see his face, but I could definitely hear him.

I started whispering nonsense to him, asking him if he remembered different things that had happened in the last 13 years of our marriage. For the most part he snored through most of them, he would wake up every once in awhile to answer a question or giggle with me about something stupid I had just reminded him of. We did this for a while till he finally really fell asleep, then it was just me. So many thoughts when through my head....I can't believe I have loved this man for over half my life. I remember when we were teenagers, everything was new, I knew I loved him, but I just wasn't ready to open up myself to the hurt that sometimes comes with relationships, I wasn't ready to completely hand over my heart to him. So we just dated for awhile. I remember when he got orders to Cuba, I wasn't down with a long distance relationship so before he left, we talked and agreed it was best not to pursue a relationship and if our paths crossed again, and we both wanted to start over, we would.

I remembered that Valentine's day in 1994 when he returned from Cuba and called me, the butterflies he gave me when I heard his voice on the phone, he still does that you know, give me butterflies.

Almost 13 years ago I gave my heart to him with his sole promise to take care of it. I'm glad to say that it wasn't a mistake. Don't get me wrong, we have had our downs, some times I want to kick him in the balls and poke his eyes out... LOL But, he has also shown me that he is more than willing to make this work and that he truly has love for me and for our kids. No matter what it has been, I know that if I really want it, he will provide it, even if he hates it, he will provide, my Pixie "Chiquilla" girl is proof of that, LMAO!