LIFE...

I've been frustrated for a long time and even thou I'm not sure this is the correct outlet, what the hell? Not many people know me in the blog world and by what I've read, many people don't bother to really get to know anyone on here. Well we sort of do, don't we? But it's like front. Sort of like our MySpace page..you only put there what you want people to see and unless they know you personally, NO ONE knows the real you.
So anyway, my husband got out the military a lil over a year ago. It's been a roller coaster of emotions. We had our days, but thank god the good days outweighed the bad ones. Even thou at times going back in was an option, I'm glad to say it's behind us. Financially we are doing better, but we hit a hard time and unfortunately it happened during the holidays. Which meant, no Christmas presents. It frustrated me like never before, and thank god, at the last minute (Dec 24) my husband got paid, it wasn't much, but we did manage to get the kids one present each.
Now we gotta deal with paying property taxes, my car needs a new windshield and maintenance. Some days I want to scream. I keep telling my husband I'm done with this lifestyle, I'm done living paycheck to paycheck and I'm done putting up with ungrateful motherfuckers.
I also had a fight with my brother Christmas eve. He has great timing doesn't he? LOL I basically told him and my dad where to go (my dad was sort of the instigator in all this). I told them not to count on me for anything and haven't said more than 2 words to either one of them since. I'm also fed up with both of them and not sure if we are ever gonna return to normal, they have burned this bridge.
I got school starting up on January 14 and I think this will be my hardest semester and the deciding semester. I get to decide if I'm gonna switch majors or stay with my current one. Yes, after all this time, I'm not even sure anymore. LOL
My In-Laws have been calling me, which is weird..what do I say to them? They have had NO relationship with me or the kids since I married their son. My FIL called me on Christmas to tell me the kids presents were downstairs and he would mail them the following week...then calls me again New Year's Day to tell me that he needs the kids info cause he got them a Credit Card for Christmas so that he can add money to it during the year for birthday's and special occasions...WTF? 2 voicemail's from the same asshole with conflicting information. Ok Whatever...I'm not even going there with him anymore. Then my MIL calls MY phone ( I don't think she realized it was my phone till it was too late) then proceeded to leave my husband a voicemail....on my phone. Sometimes I wonder why they even bother. Just leave us alone, or at least me and the kids. They are about to turn 9 and 11 years old and have seen them both ONCE and this was within the last 3 years.
Then, just when I think I want to explode, one of my friend's is having some kind of ordeal that is about 10x worse then any of mine put together and I feel like I'm just being a bitch... GREAT!!!